I am where the wildest of ones are.

I am where the wildest of ones are

Delinquents. I guess, you know what you feel. This dog is always walking; for how little he is; he must be tired. There are some things you just do not do. You should let me be the crazy one and she has way to many issues to judge. What is the advantage of routine; staying with in the lines. I would rather color blank space, you know; leave the rest up to interpretation. Do you perceive or conceive? Well, I like to do both. That is just awful. That is just dust in the wind. Moments like these; when I meet death face to face; that is when I feel most alive. I hope when death comes a knockin'; The one I love does not need a final phone call; that you know I love you with every ounce of being I have borrowed. That in my future absence; you will feel as alive as the day we first became consumed in each others presence. No matter the present circumstances; the moment is the only place I have ever been able to find you. The rest seems to slip way. The worries, the anticipated events. None of that exist with you. It is hard to explain. Where exactly did the plan backfire. Never was envious of the whole planning thing. The secret is in listening. Doubt your doubts, The solution is everywhere. I think I filed the break up papers some where to prove this. Why are you telling me all this; because when I feel something; I have to express it. That makes perfect sense. The woman I want everything to do with; wants nothing to do with me. That is worse than death itself. To lose the one you love while she is still alive. That is where the whole break up thing gets a bad wrap. The passing of ones emotions. Painful. This is all just contemplation. The girl I know is still in there. Behind the walls of pain and resentment. I'm not sure I made it there everyday, but when I am lost, I know I can find you there. Again. I wonder why these conversations are so out of the ordinary.We bare our soul to music, prayer; and paper. Hardly ever to another human being huh. It's not like we all haven't been in the exact same positions in life; and have not thought the same thing. Fuck the rest of the generation. I just like you. One should mark milestones. Make sure to remain open to the possibilities of love, from everyone; and if you must avoid anything; make sure it is your brain because following your heart; no matter how much hurt you experience; has never led you astray, No matter where you are; I am there, Play it cool. I would rather play it sweet. I know those eyes. The disappointment. The stars I wish to align. That you would have some epiphany that we are supposedly, suppose to be together. That feeling you get when you know someone is looking at her the way you look at her; through the same emotions. It just makes me happy. Even to just think about you. No matter how much grief entails from the memory of you and I. Just thinking about you makes me happy. Maybe I get high in a low place on this particular situation but the truth is that I like to know it is much deeper than that. I generally in the ordinarist of ways; Like You. Well, so much for casual conversation. Inspiring as they may be; does this really change anything. There is no winning in this. That is what most people would say. Getting out of that car is kinda like watching the ending to your favorite movie. You just do not want it to stop because you may never have the chance to see it again. That is where the lines blurred. I am coming with you. That makes me so very happy, but you have to go. Right? Yes. I am sorry. Don't be. I heard freedom is just another expression for I miss you...But; since you are leaving; and this could be the ending to my favorite movie that I may never see again; go and start a revolution; be radical; rebel; catch the fever of a riot and race at the turtles pace. Move slowly as fast as possible. Point fingers as often as you can because sooner or later,(hopefully later rather then sooner) you will have to point at yourself. Go figure. Be in denial, but have faith that your delusional idea will prevail. Pout; just do it alone if you do; and go get your heart torn to pieces so that special someone can glue those pieces back together; preferably without sniffing the glue. Taste the finer fruits of life and lie to everyone because you are scared to experience the truth that you are pretty normal. Pretty; none the less. Don't forget that, but forget everything else and grow an ego so big that it cast its' own shadow. You may learn to yearn for the light then; After that you may learn to not yearn at all. Cry yourself awake and smile yourself asleep. Dream about having a nice family and a small home or do not dream at all. Make the choice by not making the choice. Shoot for the stars and land on the moon. Find love and run! Run as fast and you can but always remember that is where home is. Start an argument, but never accept that it ended a friendship. Live a lot and never die. Legends never do. I mean there are only seven billion smiles on this planet that I know of and all I want is yours. If there is such a thing as luck then I'm lucky you even look in my direction. I guess what I am saying is there are some thing you should never get over. Waiting is the hardest part of getting over; but if you must know; if I get lost while waiting, I pray you are the one that finds me.