Lost

I could never love you.

You are love.

  I could only get lost in you,

 but

 I do pray wherever I find myself within you;

 that it is between our hello's and goodbyes.

The Art of Letting Go

It's pretty simple.

 My heart broke.

That

alone

 made

 me

 want

 to

 give

 up.

 Something sweet about that darkness though;

 you can see the stars so much better.

 This is when I realized those stars yeah, maybe those stars were staring right back at me.

 Then

 it

 HIT

 me.

 I could love you wherever you are in the galaxy; from wherever I am in the universe. 

Whenever 

I 

wanted.

I always tended to

 shine

 brighter like that anyways.

Bring Pluto Back.

There was magic in her eyes;

 Love behind her smile; sweetness in her voice;

 warmth in her touch,

 but most of all; she had scars.

 A lot of em' too.

 That never stopped her though.

Her dreams were much bigger than her brokenness.

 Her heart screamed so loud, that is why it is so easy for her to follow. 

Some would call her authentic;

 others would say she is majestic.

 How could words ever describe her?

 All she thinks is that Pluto should be planet again. 

Freedom

Its funny right. We obviously try to dislike each other and we succeed most of the time, but theirs that part of you and that part of me that has some sort of hope; even if it is hope that it will get better. The truth is that it will. Just because you cross my mind and try and make your way to my heart does not mean that it is not getting better. It just means that I care a lot more than I try not too. The truth is that I have tried to not care a whole lot. Really not working out for me. Now this isn't some pitch to get you back; but I'm just saying that I feel better caring about you then not caring about you. I have been told that their is humility in honesty so to hell with pride, yeah. So that's it. I may care about you forever or I may care about you until I wake up tomorrow morning. Who knows. I do know however that I will care about you till it no longer hurts to not care about you. There will always be more freedom in love and if you love somebody; set them free. I mean the thing is that you do not have to be here for me to like, love, or even admire you. You can be anywhere; So could I. I've always been one to resent myself over someone else. I finally figured that if I'm going to show this world love; including you; then I might as well start with myself. That is how I let go; by loving myself just as much as I would love you. Where ever we may be. Lately, things do not make sense. I guess, I'm starting to unlearn again. I stare at this blank paper with a blank expression. Funny right; how the world mirrors us. The mind gives me words, their only borrowed of course, but my soul; it gives me you. Oh; and I am not talking about the smile or glowing skin. That will leave. I'm talking about what makes you heart feel; your eyes cry from laughter. That is what you gave me. That could never be borrowed. Something like that could only awaken in me that which makes my heart feel. I think they call that home; No wonder home is where the heart is. On another note; I have a strange feeling anyways that the reason I hurt so bad is because I wanted to not care. It's in the very nature of humans to love. This nature comes from the non-human part of us. To go against this is to almost live in your shadow. Of course, even in the dark; their are fireflies. Glimpses of what it could be like. Fireflies are a lot like rain. Rain is sent to water you. So you will grow. Fireflies lead you to the light. Once your in the light; all you can do is be. If all you can do is be; then you are free.

Dreams

Sorta strange; that girl with the tattoos. Probably taken. Girls that pretty usually are. Should I lay aside manners and say hello. I wasn't raised to impose myself on another, but I've never seen one with so much style. To my surprise she said hello. Never been good with the timing of things. I was nervous; she could feel that. I peeped her heart beat though because, I could feel that. She was nervous to. We had that in common from the start. She whispered sweet somethings' to me; about how she has seen me for a while now and never had the nerve to walk up and say hello. That took my breathe away. Funny how rare that is. Her and space be the to beings to take my air away. So we just sat and laughed for a minute. A few moments turned into a few hours. I was hesitant, but I still told her that I felt like I knew her my entire life. Her smile felt like home. She told me home is where the heart is and that wherever I am she would find me; because I was home. That was the hardest part because then, she left. Then I woke up; and the rest of today is fucked.

Its Better to Feel Pain than Nothing at All.

Well hello; if that is not poetic, then what. I will paint a map leading to my heart on the back of your hand; that way when you say; you know this universe like the back of your hand; You'll find me; or maybe when you reach and grasp the sun for warmth and light when your lost and alone; you'll see that map and remember exactly where I am. Is that better? Maybe I live within those walls you vigorously built around your heart to protect yourself from pain. Maybe these same walls you have constructed are the reason the fear will not escape. I am acquainted  to both as close to them as unsuspectingly close I am to you. Please do not give me words. Let your body language speak and listen to my thoughts. What do you know about that? What do you know about restless nights; relentless love; resilient maybes because lately as a matter of fact; I've seen a love so unconditional; scared by conditions. We do not have a choice in whether we get hurt or not in life, however we do have a choice in who hurts us. It's better to feel pain than nothing at all. As fragile as I may be with faults as far as you can see; I choose you. 

Love Letters Lost

I was just thinking

that sinking is related to falling; wait, why I would even mention that is beyond the concepts I could conquer.

Lets just start over,

Could goodbye mean hello; if we never met each other before; only to ponder the point of extraction of that heart you've kept secret for so long. That was too much and I apologize if I came on too strong so,

May we start over?

Hello.

How are you?

Do I ask questions only to make statements. You solemnly swear you saw me staring and dishonesty is not my best trait; I may have looked once or twice, but does that suffice as staring. 

HMM...

I guess; I'm just not the best at this sorta thing; 

Okay;

maybe I glanced more then twice; You caught my eyes; more importantly; you've stolen my soul ever so simply through my mere observations of you. 

Usually;

If this was the usual; I would have walked away by now; I've made a fool of myself enough, but you laughed; You said when is enough actually enough?

Did you mean that out of context?

This is when it happened; and I believe it is still happening.

I

knew from this point; that I had no chance either way. I could desperately distance myself physically from you; but the emotions would never exit that you evoked; and I was just thinking;

Sinking is related to falling;

I will either learn to fly or learn to swim you know but either way;

I will fall or sink

straight

to

you.